A suicide note written in blood

Over and over again, leaving regular cuts on my body, I take up the old blade again, covered with a crust of dried blood that has remained from bad times. I remember your eyes, I remember the time when we were good, I remember my words. What were they like? It's pretty easy to forget. I used to say that I wouldn't do this nonsense anymore! I don't need all this, life is already wonderful! Only empty words come out of my mouth. Don't believe my promises, it's all nonsense! _ And now the Scarlet liquid is flowing down my body. That's just it won't stop already, and it will flow until my helpless body cools down. _ And I'm sorry, I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart. You won't see me anymore. It's your fault, no one else's! You are the culprit of my night tantrums, bitten lips, gnawed fingers to the meat! Your fault!! I was lying to myself! It was necessary to think not with the heart, but with the brain. She lied to everyone. I said, you're perfect, and there's no competition for you. Novak is a crook. Goodbye, Rui, I still love you.