I feel nothing

I don't know if I have a heart I don't know if my feelings is true Cause usually I just copy what I see in you To seems normal, to seems normal So then others can pretend that I'm okay Then others can think that I'm alright And they wouldn't afraid of me , afraid of me. I don't know if I'm able to love I don't know if I'm able to hate Cause usually I feel nothing, I feel nothing I used to copy feelings so nobody understands if there trure or lie, I used to use my mask so clear and perfectly so it's a part of me So people think that I'm normal , I'm normal. I don't know for how long it will go I don't know will I have a chance to be myself I'm just different, out of their control , out of their control So they would never know that I'm not normal at all , not normal at all Cause I feel nothing, I feel nothing. I don't know if I need to feel sorry I don't know if I need to feel guilty Cause I feel nothing I feel nothing They don't ask but I can tell They want me to leave for them So I'm trying, I'm trying But I would never be , never be one of them No one is ready for the shame so heavy Maybe they would never understand Can't keep facing this matter I'm so damn tired of keep surviving So I feel nothing, I feel nothing Nothing at all No need to say that I'm immoral No need to tell me I'm a freak Don't waste your breath, Just keep pretending that I'm normal I will wear my mask again Just let me rest at least for minute So I will stop and start again Cause I feel nothing, I feel nothing And it's okay for me.