C&F

I don’t have anybody to walk me home  When the rain is pouring, I just go alone  No one will come and help me with umbrella  Just because once I thought that being alone is so much better  I’m just running under those heavy drops  And assuring myself that I love it, but it hurts I’m not scared to get cold, I don’t care if I fall  I just wanna get home and don’t hear them all  I know that I did it myself, but I thought I was doing my best  I needed to live my full life but now I really need to confess  Maybe that was too much, maybe I need to slow down  Look around and stop doing everything on my own  It shouldn’t be that bad if I trust little more  But I’m so scared that they’ll again start to ignore  The frustration in my eyes now looks like part of me  But it used to be light and will to live fully  Probably I just think too much about things that I shouldn’t  And it’s better to continue this cycle of movement  However sometimes it becomes hard to breathe  And I don’t even know how to get through all of this  It seems to be impossible to live without affection But I must learn to deal with it and achieve perfection