Messages to the Universe

Okay, once again overwhelmed with emotions and thoughts, need to concentrate. I can do this. I just watched Venom: The Last Dance. Boy, this movie got me, really portrays my emotional state. Boy, the ending, the sensations, everything is is ooof. Eddie and Venom said goodbye to each other. It seemed like an end, the saying “He’s not coming back” “But I need him back” “He wasn’t meant for this space, you couldn’t have kept him… And he couldn’t have kept you” That just ended me. Stood up, started leaving the room. Then decided to wait for a bit. Felt stupid for waiting. I honestly thought that this is ridiculous, why have I decided to stick around, thought nothing will appear, just black screen. But then there is a scene. The area is in shatters, bartender is screaming. And there it is, small remaining of Venom. I thought he died, Eddie thought he died, the audience thought so too. But Venom lives, he is alive. That just got me so relieved and hopeful. The guy in theater said that he returns. This is warm. Hyped, excited, hopeful. Then decided to listen to my body. with closed eyes, in the darkness, I still sensed the light. After covering eyes, felt deeper. Saw the energy, the wave, somehow saw it and felt it too. Feel it in my legs. Senses the wave. Nierika. Read about it. Alright, overall feeling positive. Let’s review Rinat’s invite for wedding. Don’t know how to feel about it yet, but don't let the mind fill the gaps. And see, Aruzhan. You arrived to coffee boom, they told there were no spots with outlets. Initially also wanted to leave, guess I am very stubborn. Then right at the moment when I started to think about the wedding invitation, I was told to leave, because of the reservation. I really thought of leaving, but the waiter was kind enough to offer move to the balcony, my favourite place. Now I see my and Rinat’s spot, where we usually sit, near the wall, the furthest table. Had the urge to sit there, but then realized this table is a mess. Don’t do that to yourself. Respect yourself, don’t sit at a messy and dirty table. I know you love it, it’s favourite spot, but at the moment it is dirty. Just arrive for other time, when it gets cleaned. And other note. I have other business to do. So, get up, do your personal things. Get that sink renewed. It’s time. On Sunday, get a new haircut. Go see the girls, have some fun. Join muai tai boxing. Start living and loving and respecting yourself. Live the life and carry on. Aruzhan, carry on. Remember, Change of Heart is there, it happens and it is inevitable. Feel it and send it to the Universe. How does it feel? I feel Rinat’s hands on my shoulders. He is behind me. I feel electric and a bit numb in my lips. Feel ticklish in my neck .Rinat is kissing my neck. Sense the waves and send them. I saw the launch of the thought of the Change of Heart. I saw the flashlight. i FELT it launching and sending to the outer space. Feel and release the positive energy.